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Monday, March 18th, 2013
1:04 pm - Spring Skin for House Of Fun...
Yesterday, I created a Spring Skin for my House Of Fun message board ( http://spamlover.proboards.com/index.cgi ). I have to say that I'm proud of it. I love creating Skins but I'm never sure if I like them or not but I love that skin.

current mood: creative

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12:52 pm - About My Grandmother...
On February 28th, my my uncle drove my 85 years old grandmother to the hospital. She had a black toe. They found out she had blood circulation problems, diabetes and an infection. On March 9th, they cut her leg (just over her knee) because she had black spots on her leg...She's in the hospital. The healing of her leg seems to be going well and she seems to be doing quite well morally...It helps that she has some great doctors and that my uncle visits her every evening. I wish I could visit her but my mother and me don't have a car and we live 90 minutes (and that's by car...) away from where she lives. My uncle calls us a few times a week and my grandmother called us on Saturday and on Sunday.(yesterday...)

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Tuesday, June 14th, 2011
1:08 pm - Caro's Obsessions Forum
This is what Caro's Obsessions look like at the moment (Before I start making changes on the board...) :

Category : Staff Members

- Staff Members
- Staff Chat


Category : ~*~*Welcome to the board! Come here before posting...~*~*

- Introduce Yourself
- Rules And Announcements (1 sub-board)
Sub-board : Skins
- Suggestions And Comments
- Help
- Guests


Category : ~*~*Harry Potter~*~*

- The First Six Harry Potter Books (6 sub-boards)
Sub-boards : Book One : Harry Potter And The Sorcerer's/Philosopher's Stone
Book Two : Harry Potter And The Chamber
Book Three : Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban
Book Four : Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire
Book Five : Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix
Book Six : Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince
Book Seven : Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows
- Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows : Chapter Discussion
- Characters
- Pairings
- The Harry Potter Movies (6 sub-boards)
Sub-boards : First Movie : Harry Potter And The Sorcerer's/Philosopher's Stone
Second Movie : Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets
Third Movie : Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban
Fourth Movie : Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire
Fifth Movie : Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix
Sixth Movie : Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince
- Actors/Actresses
- Books VS Movies
- Harry Potter Word Games


Category : ~*~*Lord Of The Rings~*~*

- The Lord Of The Rings Books (3 sub-boards)
Sub-boards : The Fellowship Of The Ring
The Two Towers
The Return Of The King
- Characters
- Pairings
- The Lord Of The Rings Movies (3 sub-boards)
Sub-boards : The Fellowship Of The Ring
The Two Towers
The Return Of The King
- Actors/Actresses
- Books VS Movies


Category : ~*~*Buffy The Vampire Slayer~*~*

- All Seasons (7 sub-boards)
Sub-boards : Season One
Season Two
Season Three
Season Four
Season Five
Season Six
Season Seven
- Characters
- Pairings
- Actors/Actresses
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer word games


Category : ~*~*Entertainment~*~*

- Books
- TV Shows
- Music
- Movies
- Actors And Actresses


Category : ~*~*Cats~*~*

- General Cat Talk
- Health
- Behavior
- Food
- Pictures
- Humor


Category : ~*~*Randomness~*~*

- Last/Currently
- Ask Me Anything
- Spam (1 sub-board)
Sub-board : Smilies Spam
- Word Games
- Number Games
- Quizzes
- Polls
- Jokes (1 sub-board)
Sub-board : Adult Jokes
- Funny Pictures
- Parties
- Other Stuff
- Discussion Board


Category : ~*~*Your Stuff~*~*

- Your sites
- Your Writing
- Your Fan Art/Art Work


Category : ~*~*Guesthouses~*~*

- Caro's Place
- Faith Hope & Trick
- Welcome to Jodi's World
- Britt's Crib
- Lelandsgirl's World (1 sub-board)
Sub-board : Lelandsgirl's Over 18 Fan Fictions
- Fantasyland
- The Elektric Cirkus
- Prue's Common Room


Category : Old threads

- Old Threads

current mood: sleepy

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10:55 am - Changes on Caro's Obsessions
The next few days, I'm going to make a few changes on Caro's Obsessions. I hope it can get active again but I don't think it can. I've been a bad administrator because I didn't post on it as much as I should have and I didn't take care of my board as much as I should have. The members probably got tired of it, left and most of them probably won't come back. Oh well... It's worth trying anyway...

current mood: sad

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Tuesday, November 9th, 2010
10:10 am - David Cook singing ''Anodyne''...
That video is about David Cook and his band doing the Midwest Kings song Anodyne at UCA in Conway on February 25, 2009. David's voice sounds gorgeous here. There is so much emotion in that performance. You can feel it in David's voice and you can see it on his face and his gestures...

The Midwest Kings is a band David Cook was in when he was younger (before he auditioned for American Idol). Two members of his current band (Andy Skib and Neal Tiemann) were members of the Midwest Kings. I love how loyal he is to his friends. He could have chosen new members for his new band if he wanted to but he decided to take his friends with him.



The lyrics of the song :

Baby, it's our hearts' slow beating
That make us grow old
I mean to say there's no one helping
We're digging our own hole

I'm reading your words
They're scrawled on the page
They lay here in silent rage
I'll hold you to this for as long as I breathe
Much more than whispers

If I ever found a one leaf clover
It would be you
Wishing that such heights were lower
And nothing is new

Citing your verse
It couldn't sound worse
The black recital I did rehearse
We all die alone as I'm clenching this phone
I can't imagine a slowing hearse

How many times will I play the hero
How many lies before it's true
How many times will we clock out at zero
How many tries before we're through
How many lives 'til another you

The scars are slowly healing
The lips have regained feeling
The obstacles are kneeling
The final wax is sealing
The great white ships are sailing
The feet have left their railing
The four last hooves are hailing

How many times will I play the hero
How many lies before it's true
How many times will we clock out at zero
How many tries before we're through
How many lives 'till another you

Baby, it's our hearts' slow beating
That make us grow old
I mean to say there's no one helping
We're digging our own hole

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Wednesday, October 20th, 2010
11:48 pm - How I feel about my life...
Hmmm... As you know, I'm a member of some forums like Shrine of Snape, Sailor Earth's Collective and Luscious Lucius' Lair... If you've known me from when I first started posting on Shrine of Snape, you probably know that 5 to 8 years ago, I was very negative. I was always sad and I wanted to die. I kept writing negative posts about my life. People were too nice to tell me off but I'm sure they found me annoying. I find my old posts annoying when I reread them. Today, I don't write negative posts as often as I used to. I react differently but my life is still empty...

By the way, thank you everyone! You've all been very supportive when I was so annoying!

I don't have any offline friends. People weren't there for my mother and me when we needed help. The brother and the mother of my mother were the only ones who helped us a little bit but they don't visit us. They don't like us enough to feel the need to see us. Since nobody really cares about me, I don't care about anyone (beside my mother...) offline. I don't trust anyone anymore. I don't have as many negative thoughts as I used to have but I hardened. I'm never happy. The only feelings I still feel are sadness and anger. For example, just thinking about what I'm writing brings tears to my eyes. Most of the time I feel nothing though. I'm like an empty shell. I don't think about how much I would love to kill myself anymore but I don't want to live either. Very often, I find myself thinking I hope I will die soon after my mother and my cats will die because I know that when they will be dead, I'll be all alone and depressed and I'll have no reason to live anymore. I know that nobody will be there for me when my mother will die.

Sorry for the negative post... I needed to get it out.

Caro.

current mood: sad

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Wednesday, October 29th, 2008
10:00 pm - My ''family''
My mother is a housewife. She doesn't have a job and my father never let her driving licence. My father also never let me take my driving licence and he also never let me get a job. As you know, my father also can't drive anymore because of what happened to him.

Well, I posted this entry on Luscious Lucius' Lair a few days ago but I really need to post it here also :

I've learned something these past two years (Well, twnety-two months to be more precise)... If you need help, don't count on your family/friends. They probably won't help you even if you're there for them when they need help.

1) My father's sisters and my father's brother : When we ask something, they're always ''busy''. They never have time. In other words, they don't want to help us so they say they don't have time as an excuse...


2) The ex-girlfriend of my father's brother : She almost never helped us. When she did help us, she said things to make us feel we bothered her. It's not like we never did anything for her. Here are some examples of the things we did for her :

- When her son needed help with english, she telephoned us and we helped him.
- When her son or her daughter needed an article for a homework, we gave it to her.
- One day, she needed a baby-sitter. She telephoned us. I immediately accepted. In fact, I was happy to help her.
- When her son had to sell chocolate, we would buy some even when we didn't really want chocolate to help him gather money.
- My father isn't nice with us but he sometimes would bring her son to school when he would miss the bus.
- The ex-girlfriend of my father's brother only telephoned when she needed something or when she wanted to complain about something. She never telephoned just to talk to us or to ask us how we were doing.

It's not like she doesn't have the time to help us. She stopped working a few years ago and she has a car. When she needed help, we were there for her but now that we need help (And as I said, we rarely ask for help...), she's not there for us.


3) My godfather (The ex-husband of my father's sister) : He stopped talking to us. My mother tried to telephone him a few times but he never answered. My mother also sent him a letter but he never replied. We don't even know why he is acting like that...


4) My mother's friend : She also stopped answering the phone without giving any reasons and she never replied to the letter my mother sent her.

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Almost everybody scrapped us when we needed help even though we're there when people need help. And it's not like we're always asking them something. The grocery store delivers our food, we take the taxi to go to the bank, to the dentist, etc,... We rarely asked them for help but it was still too much for them... When people need help, they're not afraid to ask us for help but when we need a little bit of help, these people don't want to help us...

I feel like nobody really care about us except for the two fantastic people who helped us as much as they could : My uncle and my grandmother (the brother of my mother and the mother of my mother). When my father was in the hospital, my uncle and my grandmother would drive us to the hospital every Saturday even though my uncle works a lot (He worked Monday to Friday. He often finished working at 8pm.). They brought us many things and sometimes didn't even want us to pay for those things. When we would come back from the hospital, my uncle and my grandmother would stop at the grocery store so we could buy some food. My mother decided a few months ago to part from my father. She had to go to the courthouse in a taxi. It was a little bit over 100$. Well, one evening, my uncle and my grandmother came here (after my uncle came home from work) after my father went to bed and put 200$ in our mailbox so that my mother and me could go to the courthouse. A few weeks ago, my uncle and my grandmother came in my uncle's car. They brought us to a town that is one hour from where we live (and one and a half hour from where they live) so that we could visit apartments even though my uncle's car is almost dead. That day, we found an apartment and signed a lease. In a few weeks, my uncle and my grandmother will help my mother and me move. I love them! They're angels. My mother wants to buy a television for them as a gift (their television is also almost dead). I also want to buy something for them. I just don't know what I will buy them at the moment...

Is it normal that people aren't there for you when you need help (and we didn't exaggerate...) even if you're there for them when they need help?

current mood: angry

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Monday, April 21st, 2008
7:15 pm - My father...
My father can be very mean to me sometimes... I've been very angry at him for the past few months... A few examples of what he said the past few months :


- A few months ago, he almost fell over. I was away from him so it took me many seconds to reach him. While I walked to him, he said '' If I fall, you'll be happy : you'll get rid of me. ''

- A few months ago, my father went to his mother's house for the afternoon. His sister came and got him. It was cold outside. My father asked me to close the door of the house. I was in front of him. I couldn't close it because I couldn't go to the door (there was no free place beside him because there was snow everywhere...). He told me : ''That's right! Let your mother freeze!''

- My mother was talking to someone on the phone (for the insurance). My father kept telling her what to say. My mother kept telling my father ''Shh'' because she didn't hear anything the guy from the insurance said. I told my father in a low voice ''Mom doesn't hear anything the guy from the insurance tells her.'' I was polite. I didn't say anything bad. My father told me ''Go to your bedroom'' and he also told me ''Leave me the fuck alone''.
When my mother told my father off for saying that, he told her ''I came down to Caroline's level when I said that.''...

- My father's physiotherapist gave him exercises to do at home. He doesn't do them. He hasn't done any exercises at home since he came home (in July 2007). He's getting worse. A few months ago, he walked a lot better than he does right now. He doesn't do anything in the house and he doesn't do anything to get better. My mother and me have to do everything for him. I have to give him something to drink when he wants it, I have to give him collations and desserts when he wants them, I have to cover him up when he goes to bed, etc,... He can do those things but he doesn't do them. And if I refuse to do those things, he says ''That's too much to ask.'' even though I've been serving him since he came back home in July 2007.

current mood: angry

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Thursday, April 12th, 2007
11:26 pm - 99 Days
In 99 days, I'll find out if Harry and Hermione will end up together or not. I'm confident that they will end up together but if they don't, I'll be crushed.

current mood: excited

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Friday, November 17th, 2006
5:31 pm - Grrrr....
I was looking forward to the fifth Harry Potter movie since the fifth book is the Harmony (Harry/Hermione) Bible...

A few weeks ago, I saw this picture : http://www.hpana-media.com/2006/OotP/HiRes-Images/4.jpg I loved it because it was very Harry/Hermione...

I just saw thiese pictures :

http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y27/ImournforSirius/RHR.jpg
http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y27/ImournforSirius/RHR2.jpg

They are Ron/Hermione. And the worst thing is that Ron shouldn't even be in that scene. It was supposed to be a Harry/Hermione scene... If they give OOTP a Ron/Hermione feel, I won't even bother watching it... Grrr...

current mood: angry

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Thursday, November 9th, 2006
3:30 pm
All the board for my new message board are done! ( http://carosobsessions.proboards56.com/index.cgi )

If there are any board and/or categories you think I should add, feel free to talk about it in a comment.

What I still have to do :

- Make some threads in the Rules And Announcements forum
- Decide what will be the ranks of my new forum
- Make a few skins
- Advertise my message board on the forums I post on.

current mood: tired

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9:19 am
I only have these categories to do :


Category : Entertainment
- Movie
- TV Shows
- Music
- Books
- Actors/Actresses


Cats
- Health
- Behavior
- Food
- Humour
- Pictures


Category : Guesthouses
- 1 Board per member who has over 100 posts


Category : Your Stuff
- Links
- Art Work
- Fan Fictions


If you have any suggestions (boards or categories I should add), feel free to leave a comment.

current mood: exhausted

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5:19 am - The Welcome and Harry Potter categories are done...
http://carosobsessions.proboards56.com/index.cgi

Ok... The Welcome To The Board and Harry Potter categories are done... I still have these categories to do :


Category : Lord of the Rings

- Books
- Movies
- Characters
- Actors/Actresses
- Books VS Movies

Category : Buffy the Vampire Slayer

- Seasons 1 to 7
- Characters
- Pairings
- Actors

Category : Entertainment

- Movie
- TV Shows
- Music
- Books
- Actors/Actresses

Cats

- Health
- Behavior
- Food
- Humour
- Pictures

Category : Randomness

- Spam
- Word Games
- Quizzes
- Polls
- Parties
- Jokes/Funny Pictures
- Post Count

Category : Guesthouses

- 1 Board per member who has over 100 posts

Category : Your Stuff

- Links
- Art Work
- Fan Fictions

current mood: sleepy

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Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
7:59 pm - I'm Thinking About Making A Mega Board...
I'm thinking about starting a huge message board that would condense all of my
boards into one mega board (Thank you for the suggestion Jess).It would be something like :

Category : Welcome to my forum

- Introduction
- Rules and announcements
- Help
- Suggestions and Comments

Category : Harry Potter

- Books
- Movies
- Pairings
- Characters
- Books VS Movies
- Actors

Category : Lord of the Rings

- Books
- Movies
- Characters
- Actors/Actresses
- Books VS Movies

Category : Buffy the Vampire Slayer

- Seasons 1 to 7
- Characters
- Pairings
- Actors

Category : Entertainment

- Movie
- TV Shows
- Music
- Books
- Actors/Actresses

Cats

- Health
- Behavior
- Food
- Humour
- Pictures

Category : Randomness

- Spam
- Word Games
- Quizzes
- Polls
- Parties
- Jokes/Funny Pictures
- Post Count

Category : Guesthouses

- 1 Board per member who has over 100 posts

Category : Your Stuff

- Links
- Art Work
- Fan Fictions

If you have any siggestions, feel free to leave them in a comment. Thank you.

current mood: thoughtful

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Friday, October 20th, 2006
4:54 am - I'm feeling a bit sad right now...
Grrr...

A few days ago, I sent a ''Member Role Call'' e-mail to the members of my House of Spam message board ( http://spamlover.proboards33.com/index.cgi ) and nobody has replied so far... It looks like I'll have to delete almost everyone on November 15th.

As for my General Forum ( http://mygeneralforum.proboards77.com/index.cgi ), the most active member deleted herself a few minutes ago because she's at too many boards.

Why did I bother making forums in the first place?

current mood: sad

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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
8:15 pm - My first day at University...
I started University yesterday.

I had a good first day at University but that changed when I came out of the building where my course was. There was an adolescent/young adult who walked slowly in front of me with his friends. He kept saying ''Sow, sow, sow, etc,...'' (feminine of pig) in a low voice. He was smiling at me when he said that. Grrrr... It made me feel so hurt and angry...

current mood: depressed

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Monday, April 10th, 2006
1:08 pm - I'm back!
I haven't been online for a month because my computer fan overheated. I got my computer back on Thursday. I'm so happy to be able to go online! I missed posting and I missed all my online friends so much!

current mood: happy

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Sunday, December 25th, 2005
10:13 am - Merry Christmas everyone!
Merry Christmas to all my online friends! I hope that you'll all have a good day.

Caro.

current mood: bored

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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
11:10 pm - Welcome.
Hello my name is Caroline and I would like to welcome you to my journal.

current mood: depressed

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